Rolls of Autumn:Lisee Mortell

the winds crying.

Sunday, April 30, 2006

playing; across the universe - fiona apple.

phew. so im tired. im worn out. im exhausted. im supposed to be in bed right now. but im still up. and i cant sleep. so let me just kill time. let me start with school.

yada yada yada, typical saturday morning. fell asleep during geo and the teacher didnt even realise. i was right in front of him. couldnt keep myself up, my head was far too heavy. that wasnt the only class i fell asleep in, i fell asleep during combined science too. its really messed up. exams are coming soon and im hardly paying attention in class. i was looking foward to the basketball tryout thats why. we had a test for literature that i totally forgot about. nothing much tho, but i couldve done better. i hope i dont fail. its the only subject i actually want to succeed in right now. poa, maths are going crazy. homeworks non stop. im pretty sure im going to end up being in the principal's office. me and most of my mates. none of us actually get maths class. so thats not really my fault.

got dismissed from school, stayedback. went for the tryout at 1.30 up til 5.00. that was real crazy. was tired. running here and there. the tryout wasnt really a tryout. somehow they told us to play, and they observed us. is that how tryouts are supposed t be? cos my last tryout in pds was diff. i dont know if i made it, but i hope i did. was really fun. altho i could barely score a threepoint. or a layup in that matter. but i can dribble. lol. got to chill with the guitar crew. toothy's friends. was real cool. they were actually really, really good. much, much better than i am. they use all these complicated chords that i have no freakin idea existed. and even better, they memorise like almost every chord. and im not even exaggerating. they were that good. i played them more than words. but that didnt end well cos well yeah, i dont really know how to finish it off. i only know the first two tabs? chords. whatever. yeah but that was cool.

we got bored by around 4 so we bullied mash. we being umi, gyms and me. at first mash took off one of her shoes and threw it to the center court. this chick took it and placed it further. as mash got up to get it, gyms outran her and pretty much kept it away from her. so mash was pretty bummed. kept whining, but made no diff. so we were sitting down and i got bored. so i told gyms to pull out her other shoe off while i held her back. in the end she was shoeless. goodness it was funny. we just couldnt stop. i made it worse by tieing the shoelaces together and hung it on the basketball hoop. it took us minutes to finally take it down. even so, we still wouldnt give in. until of course we got bored of the whole thing that we returned it to her.

so i was really tired you see. i was supposed to meet up with mims at a saloon to do my hair. but i couldnt make it in time. soon as i got there, they were already heading back home. so i got a haircut. nothing much, trimmed, shortened the bangs. not much diff. cept that i have a much shorter bang now. which is way better i think. so since mims left, i was alone in gdg. freaked me at first. but soon as i walked into west. everyone was there.

it was iza's birthday anyway. oh. which reminds me. HAPPY BDAY KECIL! il get you that nasi katok you wanted. hugs. right so where was i. oh yeah. i msged eyoy cos i knew theyd be there. but they didnt msg til like, late sorta. so i met up with sapi. chilled with him. the man u vs chelsea game was on. pretty much killed ourselves with that. got so emotional. thanks sap for the teh tarik. lol. met up with the pdsers as well, but didnt chill mch. zuul too. didnt chill much with em as well. met with nadj too. i miss that little thing. too bad she had to go home awal. right. just a lot more but yeah you catch my drift.

so after went shisha, again. btw, thanks babes. sekali while i was chillin and shit. this crowd behind was like bising and this dude was talking in slangs and everything. and yup, it was abang. haha. who wouldve thought. paca tu. but it was fun la, koknya. then continued watching chelsea beat man u's arse. i actually didnt know chelseas handal. then stayed a lil while to watch liv vs aston. that was all right. saw the first goal, that was cool. right, so left and bought alexandria. i must say that dude is really cute. as in ohmydeargod cute. im not done with it yet though. i hope i dont fall asleep. im pretty tired. my eyes are dead red. even worse, i have to wake up real early in the morning to attend the neighbour's wedding. how great is that. that, plus i have to babysit the baby cos aunty daisys having her day out. and i should be in bed right now.

anyway, i was gnuh upload some pictures. but photobucket is being a fag right now. so. im going.
e; kalo bukan skarang, kapan lagi?

(2:56 AM)

afterglow.

Friday, April 28, 2006

playing; imagine - jordis unga.

theres going to be a friendly basketball match soon. stpri against two other schools. im not going to say anything yet as we dont really know if thats gonna go to plan. but if it does. man, thats going to be both thrilling and scary. haha. i mean sure, its basketball. but you really gotta have skills you know. and i dont think i really have that. and if its luck. we'll be playing for the U17. IF that is how the rule goes. cos if im not mistaken its U16. which is pretty tough, i think. anyway, on saturday theres going to be some audition for it. only ten students are going through. so wish me luck. its going to be hell, im sure. which is why ive been running around trying to find someone to train me. ive talked to the pds boys. im trying to get through my previous coach, teacher peter. but i have no friggin idea how thats going to happen as he is no longer teaching in pds. sigh. anyway, lets just hope i do fine.

there was a netball game yesterday. stpri against jis. hmm, i wonder how that went. i was supposed to stayback and watch but i was far too tired. but the rest stayedback so hopfully yeah. its crazy when theres a game in stpri., every one of us would just be so fuggin loud. the whole audi would roar like crazy. real fun. no ones against anyone. for the first time i think, everyone is in it together. haha. now that ive never seen in a school chick with all the drama going on.

i watched The Notebook. stupid movie got me so emotional. haha. but its a good movie yes? real sweet. the guys pretty cute too. whatever his name is. the ending sucks so i skipped that. even so id give it an 8. solid.

so kelly got eliminated from american idol. did you see Elliot Yamin's performance. man, that guy can really sing. oh oh and Chris too. how sexeh. haha. right, off to bed!

e; who wants tommorow.

(2:38 AM)

rain rain go away.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

dang it! wats wrong with brunei? why is it always raining? geez. in school just now when we were having our poa extra class, all of a sudden it started to rain like heavily and it was LOUD! and like 2 weeks ago, it rained in gdg and shitt banjir ahh! even last nite when i was watching american idol, it started to rain and i couldnt see paris's and taylor's performance. im not that bummed out about that, since you know, they suck =) Mcfever did good doncha tink? but the judges said otherwise. pfft! tuli much? then tadi, they all apologized for being too harsh on her. nahh baruu tauu~ i told you she did good.

there were news today in school about the fact that yesterday a few teachers went to mamih and arena after school checking to see if there were students there. and yes, they caught a few people smoking in arena WITH their school uniform. the punishment: expelsion =/ im not gonna say names, but yeah i tink they did get expelled. now thats scary!

till then,
sham.

(6:52 PM)

just wonderful.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

english orals done =) my passage was about rain. and the questions were about how is water important, how to conserve water yada yada. it wasnt as hard as i thought it would be cus tiqah was the first one and hers was about photography. i dont know jack shit about photography. so THANK THE LORD mine wasnt about that. finished by like 2.30 which was waaaayyy earlier than i finished my malay orals. go figure.

my sister sent barang last sunday. she gave only a few junkfood. not as much as before cus its expensive sending through mail. ive been nagging her to get me this rice crispy chocolate mark and spencer treat since december. and finally, it has arrived =D along with a few burnt cd of some tv series like OTH but only like 8-16th episode of the 3rd season, OC, Scrubs yada yada and movies like 40 yr old virgin, just friends, into the blue yada yada yada. so far, ive only watched just friends (it was okayy i guess, around a 5/10 maybe?) and OTH. AND OMG YOU WOULDNT BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED! i dont wanna spill it out, just incase you one tree hill fans out there dont want me to blurt it all out. and oh my lord, chad had his hair up a lil different than before. but still laaawaaaaa! chad, you sooo fiiiiine i tell ya.

yayas gonna be performing this sunday at the mall was it? and also on rtb on friday. so people, PLEASE WATCH cus i tell you, her voice is just OMFG GGUUUDDD =D she asked me which one to sing either if i aint got you, or the song she wrote. and i prefered her singing her song, so ppl would be firmiliarized by it. baru sekali ya perform that, afiq aka sonny has already fallen for it. he even has it for his RING TONE for crying out loud! sekalinya fiqqq fiqqq.

had a poa test today and nggeehhh i dont tink i did so well. cus it was a retest and i dont really like retests especially if my original score was already satisfying enough. got back my physics test and i got a 91.7 how guuurreaatt is that! i never get this high for physics. its a miracle. and fyi, i DID NOT cheat =D the only reason why i got an ok mark is because i already studied about half-life in japan and i got an A. so yeah. harhar.

im getting a tad bit lonely these days. i dunno why. maybe because ive been single for quite awhile now? hahaha. man, how pathetic can i be. pfft. screw it. at least i have my friends =) although it would be nice to have a special someone with it. haha =D

oh and btw, saw hot junior the other night. man oh man, hes just soooo fiiinneee. his face is like *melts*. suchh a beeeeeaauuutiful sight you are.

shaz.

(7:34 PM)

jamming.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

playing; trees by marty something :p

oh dear oh dear oh me oh my. haha. goodness sake. damn who wouldve thought a lot could happen in so little time. let me just say this then. maybe you guys are wondering why the hell my writing style completely changed from normal to ab. HAHA. wehell, since i just got into the John Grisham book. i forgot how detailed sentences can leave such impressions. lasting, impressions if you must. it all started with the literature book, To Kill a Mockingbird. after reading more and more of Sidney Sheldons, i began to get even more inspired. and now John Grisham, to which although i havent finished reading, has already got me writing crazily. haha. whereas ive been getting such low marks in literature somehow the teacher thinks i dont write in such good literary language. haha said it more of spoken english. so no harm done. i guess i should stop it now to avoid any further problems. plus trying to sound smart is indeed tiring. HAHA. but the compliment i got from a friend really did help :D thanks bebeh, you know who you are.

guess who i met at the arcade. why it was Nikki Wikki! the white boy! at first we only talked about a minute and a half? until later we got too bored we decided to first; race on those car games, then kicked each others butt at some tekken game. haha. i had fun wigga boy! hope to see you soon. you take it easy man, dont be so hard on yourself.

then after i FINALLY got jack fixed. my dear god it has been such a long time. the whole thing was pretty cool. i stayed at contessa longer that i wouldve expected. but theres nothing to complain. being surrounded by musical instruments was no price to pay. even so, as i got home. i still think the tuning isnt right. which sucks, bihig time. hopfully abang will get it fixed. hopfully.

theres an english essay based on some expedition thing that i am fed up with. haha. hence i didnt do it. see, i spoke too soon about me getting back on track. now im falling out of it. i wonder how long its going to take me to get back on it. sighs. seriously whats gotten into me man. haha shaz. i think im saying this for the both of us. oh speaking of which. HAI CHICKEN :D

i think i lost umi's pendrive cover. i am in for it. she is going to kihill me. i actually had it about.. 3 days ago. and now it just isnt here. i spent at least an hour and a half looking for it. when i got too tired i started doodling on jack. yes, with a white marker. haha. i didnt really do a good job now it just looks fcuked up. haha. right so i still cant find umi's pendrive cover. oh me oh my what do i do.

i remember nikki telling me something about how yen was talking to a model one night. its crystal clear now why.KABOOM! hes in the newspaper. HAHA. MODELLING. haha. boy oh boy! congrats babes.

papas calling. gta run.

e; jai guru de va om.

(11:35 PM)

thoughts.

Friday, April 21, 2006

playing; ex-factor - lauryn hill.

carried by this self relief, im finally back home. the sound of my strumming remains unnoticed. even if it were the loudest, they dont think i can play. no, its just what i think. so i relax myself, hold on to the new John Grisham book i hope to get inspired by. but how can i be. when even the title confuses me. soon enough, ill fall asleep. from such boredom. laziness is setting in again. my mind stays restless. my maths hw stays unsullied. the mind refuses to calculate. the raging thoughts of acing another essay stands corrected and yet, my body is far too weak to get it done. as i sit here, realising my previous post was just another amusement to another page of my life. even so, the sound of the cranberries is playing inside my head erasing everything. funny how we can control what we want with gadgets. perse the iPod buttons. how we can stop, foward, pause and rewind. it all seems so.. easy.

as boredom took control of my world, earlier this noon. ive decided to ride the bike, it wasnt all that bad. the wind playing with my hair. whispers i could barely hear. the exceleration of tricks done with the bicycle followed by boast. laughter aired as i knew it was nothing no one cant do. in a blink of an eye, i was sweating hence the pool called out to me. as i floated on a blue-air mat, i looked up. the view i got was unexplainable. miraculously beautiful, pure of white cotton candies and bright baby blues. there was no war, no pain, no hunger, no hatred. peaceful as it was. my mind wandered imaginary things. as the cottons started to form a beautiful wing. just enough for the whole wide world to admire upon. like a painting that will always be there. everyday, it would be different. if today the clouds were dispersed, tommorow they might be dancing with the dark clouds. funny how they are made from rain. how little things can make big things happen. but thats the way it is isnt it. its the little things that matter.

e; drive.

(11:18 PM)

standing in the dark.

hwks have been pilling up. mid year exams starts on the 29th of may. english orals this coming monday. june o'levels between mid may-mid june. so much work! and yet, im still so lazy to do my hwk and study. wat the hell is wrong with me? i mean, COME ON SHAZ BELAJAR WAHH! yes, im talking to myself. how sad is that?

dancing classes have already started. and i aint in it! pfft! i so wanna join~

OMG i should be on the way to tuition now. laters!

-shaz

(5:56 PM)

tobacco skin.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

playing; wanna love you girl - robin thicke ft. pharell william.
this beat to this song is wayyyyy sexeh. oh so seriously.

my apologies for not blogging daily. it has been such a hard week. schools being a btch as usual. thats all i ever talk about now init. how sad am i. HAHA. scru you. school was a real big mess this time. heres the story.

like any other school, there are prefects. unfortunately for 4D our one of our prefects is in charged of the disciplinary actions. funny thing is, this chick is crazy. just as much as us. she brings her phone, rarely wears her tudong properly AND makes excuses just to skip class. right so today. we had a maulud celebration in school. that turned out all right, although we did got paranoid when we saw the prefects forming a circle as if they were going to inspect us on the spot. but we were all relieved once we got out of the audi hence it meant there was NO spotcheck.

it started during recess. the chick came up to me and umi saying that there was going to be one. umi asked her if she brought hers, she said no. although she said she was unsure. even so, we informed the whole class so everything became a mess. the chick even helped us find a place to hide our phones. and then it started. we said to her if she was just messing with us with the spotcheck she was in for it. somehow me and my mates got to talking and left her out.

soon, there were more than one prefect in our class. approximately 5. this was when the chick started to gain more confidence. hence she started screaming at us. told us to hand in our phones. at first me and umi didnt want to. but because she saw us holding it earlier she wasnt going to let us go this time.

sh.tty thing is, as i heard from the rest of the people who didnt hand it their phones. they said they saw this chick bringing her OWN phone to school that morning. the class pretty mch just btched, btched, btched. haha now aint that fcuked up stupid coward.

and now i must apologize again, i dont usually talk about situations like this on the net. but i just had to get it out of my system. plus its not like i gave in names. now that wouldve been even more selfish. right moving on.

since this was my first time of EVER breaking a rule in stpri and finally getting caught. i didnt know the procedure of getting my phone back would take me ages. they gave us at least SIX yeah thats 6 forms to fill up. one to be given to the parents, the rest god knows who. after that, they lecture you. they lecture you like crazy. they make fun of you. they question you. they warn you. and finally, they give you back your phone. HAHAHA, paca, be-skill!

im over at mama's now. the house is getting better. mamah's going to transform our garage into some kind of retro chilling place. HAHA. i cant wait for that to happen. soon ther will be partays every now and then. not forgetting abang and amir's upcoming birthday. bui, bui.

i watched the indonesion movie, Me vs High Heels? haha now that movie is friggin funneh. cept when it comes to the end it gets pretty stupid, scary and sad. but its all right la. over ten, if give it a solid 6.. point 5. HAHA.

tommorow's fridae. wonder whats cming to get me.

e; i know ugliness now show me something pretty.

(6:16 PM)

oliver killer night.

Monday, April 17, 2006

playing: last kiss - pearl jam.

saturday night was Oliver Twist night. it was fun for a short while, but then i was too tired to just sit and concentrate on a saturday night. so, the friends and i decided to ditch the play and chill at the Empire beach instead. only, it took them at least an hour and a half to get us a buggy due to the heavy rain. so while waiting, some got too bored that they ditched us and went home. some stayed and whined non stop. by the time the buggy came we were already worn out but we still went to the lobby nonetheless. nothing much happened there, i did meet up with zuul tho. but that was it. in about 30 minutes or less we left the lobby and went back to square one. in the end we ended up eating pop mie at the empire cinema. HAHA.

so i went back home with umi, and no one picked me up so i sleptover. which was really cool. but the night went short cos we were both restless. cos earlier that day. i went to gdg. supposedly i was going to pierce my ears with gyms. only i chickened out. HAHA. eyoy was there that was cool. cos he helped me to calm gyms down as she was a wee bit scared. HAHA. i chickened out man. hahaha.

because i chickened out, i thought itd be an awesome suprise to the chikas if i tried piercing again. HAHA. the thought of it was just way cool but once i got there it wasnt cool at all. but nonetheless i did it :D hehe. and i am ever so happy. thanks to maj, lynn and eyoy's company. if it werent for them i wouldnt have gone thru it easily. haha. then pretty much chilled with the usual crowd again. i missed em. met with nadjeh and smelleh boy syafers. HAHA. no more shoulda woulda coulda eh babes?

kaka pij got me these real cute pencil case, so thank you kaka. nyehs. all right i gotta work on my assignments now before i mess myself up again.

mals, umies, gyms.

haha.

umi, gyms.

pasang muka pacah :D

babes i love.

a group picture without umi is priceless ;) HAHA. kidding wa.

yanneh bunneh.

yanneh and yumi.

jumah.

joyah and jumah.

e; "hand me my gluhue and guhunting. i need to paste it in my buhuk." HAHAHA.

(2:44 PM)

im no superman.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

didnt end up going to yayas concert lastnite. i soo wanted to watch yaya perform but then i had my reasons. so i went to tuition instead. somehow my a.math class isnt all that bad. its not dull like my science class. we listen to music while we do our work. sometimes we even dont do any work ourselves. like last time, mr.bong lanja-ed us pizzas. we ate and beceritaed the entire time. friday's class, we were talking about boys..

shaz and kiana : money is important.
mr.bong : money isnt everything. as long as the guy cares for you, loves you. thats all that matters.
shaz : well yea. but then money is also important. so is looks =D
kiana : and BODY ODOUR!
shaz, amal and mr.bong : HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!
kiana : its truueee.
shaz : hahaha banar plg. but thats just sooo random!

tadi noon, my parents were at a jemputan i tink. and on the way back, the car tire pancit. so they called home...

dad : panggil kan si mus kerita bapa pancit.
shaz : bah
[calls mus, the driver]
[5 mins later]
mus : wanii, mama kan cakap.
shaz : yeah?
mum : you know arah rumah kawan mu si nadia atu, yg arah sungai akar. ada roundabout before the u-turn. then accross there ada a jalan. and sana tu ada kerita.
shaz : ohh okay.
mum : bah, aga ko ikut si mus and liatkan jalannya. and kau ada telephone kan, call mama when kan sampai.
shaz : bah

nahh! seeee. without me going to yaya's house, i wouldnt know where sungai akar is. and without me having the phone, i couldnt have contacted you. seee, and you were gonna make me not hangout with yaya and take my phone away. tsk tsk.

shaz.

(3:55 PM)

phew

Saturday, April 15, 2006

phhewwww! june malay orals sudaahhh! =D =D mudah mudahan pass. aaaammmiiinnnn. so i was like the 5th person from pds to go in. i knocked the door and said asalamualaikum and sat down on the chair. read a 3 paragraphed passage and had to answer 5 questions orally. i did okay in the reading. first question; ngeh. i was searching through the paper for like literally 45secs. then finally found the answer. second and forth question; okay. third question; antamed (think i got it wrong). last question; totally blank! it took me 2 mins to answer cus i had to say another word for produk. i wanted to say output/outcome but then i had noooo idea wat it was in malay! so i finally just sed pengeluaran. wat the?

then fahaman over, onto personal stuff. the topic of conversation was about tourism. so i guess that was good enough. they asked which country ive been to, what i learnt about the country, how different they are from brunei, wat should tourists visit when they come to brunei, how brunei can be improved with the tourists' interest in mind yada yada yada. i mean i could answer all this just like that. but in malay, it took me a while. i had the idea in mind, but converting it into standard malay? paayyaahh! the examiner was telling me that i should just talk mcm normally cus i was studdery all throughout the whole thing. but then i was like payah, cus inda biasa. so yeah it took me forever in that room.

at first, it was so serious in that room. but then at the end, i made them laugh. not sure what exactly caused them to laugh, but at least they laughed. and i left the room with them smiling. good enough =)

shaz.

(5:14 PM)

bday wish.

Friday, April 14, 2006

real quick.

HAPPY BDEH ZUUUUL.14.3.2.1 Vr.3.4 :D you smell! HUGS BABES. lets go buy some guns yes? shall i reload them for you? shall i even pull the trigger for you ;)

e; dwibahasa.

(5:26 PM)

sdhfnsmc

if only. you should watch this movie, if you're into lovey dovey shits. its good! =D i watched it tadi on starmovies. and hell, i almost cried. but i sucked it all in since i was watching it with my sister =) but yeah, it was niiceee.

"After his impetuous musician girlfriend, Samantha (Hewitt), dies in an accident shortly after they had a fight (and nearly broke up), a grief-stricken British businessman, Ian Wyndham (Nicholls), living in London gets a chance to relive the day all over again, in the hope of changing the events that led up to her getting killed..."

This movie shows that you should tell your love ones how much you truly feel towards them before its too late. cus you dont know when he/she will be gone. it can be in 10 years or even the next hour. so yeah, shaz's word of advice for the day =D oh and Jennifer Love Hewitt sang in the movie, and shit. i didnt know she was good. i mean, i knew she sang, just not THAT good.

went bowling this morning and played twice with babes. we made a bet that whoever wins, gets $1 per game. and i got $2 =D yes, i won both games. 77 the first one then 94. i know its not tinggi, but then i was higher than babes'.

i told my mum about saturday nite in the car but then she said "jangantah". that all we spoke about the whole thing. cus babes HAD TO INTERUPT US TELLING US ABOUT THE DA VINCI CODE! she went blabbing and blabbing until we got home. gila~ annoying much?! but ill TRY to ask my mum again, and my dad. hopefully dpt, cus i waaaannna go out!

malay orals esok, and i dont tink my parents even know that its esok! har har.

shaz.

(3:42 PM)

just saying.

it, what goes around. comes around.

Countless rebirths lie ahead, both good and bad. The effects of karma (actions) are inevitable, and in previous lifetimes we have accumulated negative karma which will inevitably have its fruition in this or future lives. Just as someone witnessed by police in a criminal act will eventually be caught and punished, so we too must face the consequences of faulty actions we have committed in the past, there is no way to be at ease; those actions are irreversible; we must eventually undergo their effects.

The Sanskrit word Karma (or kamma in Pali) literally means action. Karma mainly refers to one's intention or motivation while doing an action.
The shortest explanation of karma that i know is: 'you get what you give'. in other words; whatever you do intentionally to others, a similar thing will happen to yourself in the future.
Our largest obstacle to understanding or even believing in karma may be time. The 're-actions' or results of our actions show up with a time delay, and it becomes extremely hard to tell which action caused which result. Actions done in a previous life can create results in this life, but who can remember their past life? For ordinary humans, the mechanisms of karma can be intellectually understood to some extent, but never completely "seen".

Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.

for more. go here. http://buddhism.kalachakranet.org/karma.html

lastly, are we allowed to believe in such things?

e; what if.

(2:23 AM)

eblive.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

playing: almost doesnt count - brandy.

this is an inspiration.

damn shaz. both your posts are so fuggin funneh. first is. ive heard of that weird fcuk who goes around showing off his sht. stupid mofoka, thats what he is. second is that msn addie. haha. man that is just messed up. hahaha. il tell you two things. he may be gamin on you or someones just being an asswipe. haha.

right. i didnt stay back today. i was supposed to go to the dentist for a check up but unfortunately the dentist wasnt there. isnt that funny. well yeah anyway. abang's got a job at this graphic designing place. which is great. so congrats bang. i think he'll do real well in this, knowing that hes done real rad designs. haha.

oh the chicks signed me up for this dancing thing in july. which i dont really know what for. haha. but hopfully it's fun. so eca classes are starting on the 15th and thats like this saturday. as from today, saturday afternoons are going to be eca afternoons. which SUCKS. cos wer suppose to rest on saturdays. damn the ecas! haha. oh well. speaking of which, shaz. whats this dancing show pds is having? gimme the details babe.

i have this allergy on my neck and it sucks fcuks. its cos of the stupid tudong pins and now i have this rash. unattractive, if you must. hahaha. and its getting worse. argh. so i havent fixed jack yet. hopfully il get that done by tommorow.

our progress reports will be handed to the principal by next week and i havent finished my hws. i have a lot actually. lemme sum it up. theres THREE english essays, malay, commerce, geography, combined science. oh god. this is killing me. haha.

quick shout outs:

tom hagen; thanks babes! :D love yuh.
abg as; lets stand together from now on ;) you knoh i love yuh.
umi; i dont like you anymoh. go away.

e; hey mr nice man.

(10:38 PM)

WTF!

i just found out sumting new! this dude added me up right..

paulio says:
hi
Shaz- touch my world with your fingertips. says:
hey
Shaz- touch my world with your fingertips. says:
whos this?
paulio says:
who are u
paulio says:
wernt u on epsin
Shaz- touch my world with your fingertips. says:
ur the one that added me
paulio says:
yeah
Shaz- touch my world with your fingertips. says:
epsin? wats that?
paulio says:
tis girl gave me ur addy
paulio says:
its a chat room
Shaz- touch my world with your fingertips. says:
seriously?
paulio says:
she was called shaz
Shaz- touch my world with your fingertips. says:
are you serious?
Shaz- touch my world with your fingertips. says:
so sumone pretended to be me? WTF
paulio says:
weird i no
Shaz- touch my world with your fingertips. says:
btw, wat else did that person who pretended to be me say?
paulio says:
she gave me her addy so that she could go on cam for me and do naughty things
Shaz- touch my world with your fingertips. says:
you gotta be kidding me!
paulio says:
no
paulio says:
im not
paulio says:
she was from the us thou
Shaz- touch my world with your fingertips. says:
she sed her name was shaz?
paulio says:
yeah
paulio says:
she was quiet fit to
paulio says:
the bitch
Shaz- touch my world with your fingertips. says:
wat theee

WAT THE FUCK MAN! BAIE KALI. WHO THE HELL IS FUCKING PRETENDING TO BE ME, GIVING OUT MY EMAIL ADDRESS TO FUCKING STRANGERS SO THAT I COULD FUCKING SHOW THEM SHIT. BAIE KALI. I AINT NO CHEAP BIATCH. WHOEVER YOU ARE, FUCK YOU! YOU HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO KAH WITH THAT SAD PATHETIC LIFE OF YOURS! BANAR TAH.

(9:30 PM)

aloha~

apa tu lastnite ah. they cut kellie's performance. WTH man! that song lagi tu the one that suzie sang for INXS. but i tink suzie sang it better =)

shit to the shitzer. i wanna go out saturday night to watch yayers concert but then..takut saya nak tanya ibu i =/ so everybody pray with me that she'll be in a VERY good mood esok. alriteeyy? =)

before going to my science tuition yesterday, i was at west with ermy and effy along with some tuition people. so as i was leaving weststreet with the tuition people :

fyi, i dont know their names.
tuition girl #1 : bah kamu together la. takut ku krg ada that guy!
tuition girl #2 : awu weh. gila kali~
shaz : ngapa? wat happened?!
tuition girl #1 : tadi waahh. kami guna the lift to go ke sini kan. yatah ada this guy wah. ia liatkan kami his THING!
shaz : APA EEHH!
tuition girl #1 : HAHAHAHAHA awuuuu. BASAAARRR ahhh!
shaz : HAHAHA paalloiiii

thank the lord esok we dont have school. im just so ngalih. we got our chemistry test tadi, she was so pissed at us cus our marks were just soooo low! she said that no one got more than an 80. so i was like OOHHH SHIITT! i tot i would get at least 80+ cus the test wasnt that hard. so tcher shabana was like saying everyones mark out loud. the lowest was a 6 out of 100. gila kali~ no wonder she was soo upset and like maybe only 5-7 ppl saja yg pass. i got a 78 i tink or was it a 76? i got the highest i tink =D but its still not good enough =/

aiiyooo. i didnt see the last 10 mins of american idol! budduhh kali. my driver tadi panggil kjp to help him out with sumting. so i DIDNT see who got voted out! whoooo kann? si bils/yenzo ani ckp that ace keluar. but then they were like bucky keluar. so im just like APAAAKANNN! panat kamu ni ehhh~

note to self : PRACTISE YOUR GOD DAMN MALAY WOMAN. MALAY ORALS IN 2 DAYS!

Jasmine.

(8:38 PM)

bargain

Monday, April 10, 2006

wassa, wassa. haha where should i start. oh yes, school sucked. haha. this time i fell asleep for a least 3/9 of the classes. i got real paranoid when the geog teacher checked our books individually. thankfully by the time he got to me his time was up sekali he said hed continue next time. haha my kerja rumah belum siap, yatah that was just crajjy man. haha. oh i got an A2 for my english essay :D woohoo. happy gwe.

grandmomon is here! she thought me "uh, de, twa, khath, so'n" HAHAHA. okay yeah i know none of that make sense. haha i dont know how the hell your supposed to spell it. but that actually means 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. HAHA. she'll be staying here for 10 days. yayness! haha.

mamas back from spore. and she did. not. balikan. me. what. i. wanted. so instead she gave me cash to buy what. i. want. here. which sucks. but if she bought it in spore itd be cheaper. haha. anyway. tomorrow im gnuh go ke contessa to fix meh guitar. yeaaaaah baby. soon il be playing it like a proh ;) HAHA. man, me and my own world.

and shaz thanks for the paca icons AND yes. romeo old skool is so fineeee. hahaha.

e; say something. or leave without your testis.

(11:46 PM)

my oh my

Des'ree - Kissing You is soo lawa. it just makes me all butterfly-y inside. i know i know, its a classic. but classics are nice, no? =D its just that Leo DiCap was sooo fiiinee in that movie! *daydreams*

shaz.
HAHAHAHA saja wanted to say that =D

(9:52 PM)

baie utak ku sakit.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

playing: imagine - john lennon.

earthlings. haha. i missed school yesterday. which was funny because i was already IN school til i realized my stomach was literally kiling me. they had this ECA orientation that i forgot about. haha. the babes signed me up for basketball AND choir. haha. how paca is that. i asked for basketball. no offense but the choir isnt as good as.. anything really. haha.

anyway. moving on. at 4 went to gadong with the usual gadong crowd. only this time i met up with the godfathers plus wana and dai. chilled with the godfathers after wana and dai left. that was fun. haha. we just joked around most of the time. haha. funny, what. oh met up with si shaz alsoh. haha. guess what babes. si ITU datang jua that night. HAHAHAHA :D man, what a B-E-A-U-tiful sight.

after, i went to the arcade and watched these two people beat each others asses off on the dance floh. i wasnt the only one awed. they were seriously good man. i mean SERIOUSLY. haha. sekali just bummed around the whole night through. until at around 10, aunty called to ask if i had a ride home. i did. so before heading on home we went shisha sekajap. hahaha. it has been four years since i last shishaed. gila, so last night was pretty gooood. haha.

then we had to rush from qlap to berakas, and it was already past my curfew. this was also scary cos berakas was filled with traffic cos ther was a game against johor (which was a draw btw). sekali baik jua aunty covered up for me. therefore i got back home before the rents did. phew. hahaha. twas really paca ill tell you that!

so yeah the night purteh much sucked. nyehs. what else is new.

e; everything will be just fine.

(11:21 PM)

...

alriteyy. ive decided to change my godfather name. because that suuummmonee said shazito sounds like shit. sooo, now its JASMINE AMELIA CORLEONE. i just came up with my middle name in like 5 seconds so i might change it when ive come up with a better one.

went to gdg lastnight. i was suppose to meet up with nazri. but somehow, we didnt =/ cus i was chilling at chill and he was prolly in west. we were gonna do sumting together but then since lastnite didnt happen, we're gonna do a raincheck on that.

im listening to the song ace sang last week Tonight I Wanna Cry. and oh lordy, im melting!

shaz.

(5:14 PM)

morning darlin

Friday, April 07, 2006

speaking of the godfathers, sham. haha i was welcomed into it as well. by sincerely, the Don and his fellow underbosses. HAHAHA. it started off really funny. and it came off good. although it could get better. HAHA. anyway, listen.

since everyone has had thier own little Sicilian names, mat and i thought of mine. it was such a joke at first. anyway. the people with the original character names are the ones who started it all. as you can see from shaz's corleone famleh tree. HAHA. what a way to get a high position shaz ;) guess what i am. the cook :D HAHAHAHA.

right, where was i? oh yes. the name. well i suggested Dang Hayam Buhuk Bte Jamrut. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! AKA Ling Ling. HAHAHAHA. the cook :D hahah. yeah man. but we ended up with.. you see. i want to be the Don. but no chikas cant pay the price to be a Don (although i do think we can! HEEHEE.) so im a Dawn instead. HAHAHA. IF you catch my drift. final decision? Dawn Jamie Corleone. :D now, thats tight. HAHA.

enough about that, send the men! there will be eca classes soon. umi and i are up for it. i cannot wait at all. we're signing up for the basketball team. its been such a while since i last even touched a basketball ball. haha. but you know what else is really retro now? softball. HAHA. sham, remember softball in the studio. HAHAH. PACA.

during luncheon today, the usual crowd hung out with nadya and mash. only without gyms. this was weird because none of us actually remember. aww, im sorry gyms. haha. anyway. so we're thinking of starting a band. which is aces for me cos ive always wanted to start a band. anyway. it grew to be a serious dicussion. nadya would be on the drums. i would be on either rhythm or lead. HAHA. and the balum tau. hahaha.

anyway, so we came up with the band names. yannay started with Mohawk Barbie to Mohawked Dolls, The Whats HAHA, The Pop Mie Girls HAHAHA, The STPRIANS HAHAHA. goes on..

these were the nice ones:
The Marilyn Monroes, The 9 O'clock Show, The Dons, The Name of the Band.

added;
i just got back from gdg, nothing much to talk about. gadongs getting really boring. i met with some people and someone. twas cool. the don was there too, if im not mistaken. hahaha. but we didnt really exchanged hi-s. i did exchange hugs with yenji. whom i still miss (: HAHA. right. was gonna jumpa shaz, but i think she came a bit late. so that sucked. hahaha. anyway. im off!

e; cos im chillin like a benadryllin :D

(9:55 PM)

Royal Navy Brunei.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

haloo. well yesterday 42 students were brought to Muara for a field trip to the Royal Navy Brunei. which included moi, umi, yannay, rikki and wards. started at 7.30 until 2.00. easily translated: we got to ditch school AND the extra classes :D HEE. anyway, i think thats enough. im sure the pictures can speak for themselves.

soldier uniform.

underwater CAMERA.

on the Singaporean Ship.

Sg. Ship.

Cpt. Shahairil.

my sayangs.

STPRIAN representative :D

group photo.

twin.

e; nightswimming.

(11:16 PM)

why oh why.

i hate having dinner. everytime its dinner, i get reeaaaal scared! cus thats the only time i hafta face both my parents at the same time. and usually ive done something that they didnt like, so im just scared what they'll say. that's why i usually either come down early to eat or eat as fast as i can.

had a computer test and a chemistry test tadi. computer was a hell of a hard test! when we were about to go into the classroom rite, tcher shaun was like put your bags inside then go straight out of the room and form a line. so we were just like ehhh!?! so we stood outside TRYING to get the 80pgs of shit we had to know for the test, but that didnt happen. we stood there for like 15mins or so. inside the classroom, tcher shaun had the lights switched off while he was writing the questions on the board. he wouldnt even let us stand outside by the window! takut ya we'll see the questions. pfftt. sucha paranoid person. when he finally finished writing the questions, he let us in one by one assigning out seats. we wanted to switch on the lights kan, but he was like NOO dont switch it on yet. paloiii kali. pikirnya we cant see the questions already masa the lights betutup ka. talk about panatness.

the chem test however was okayy. not that easy and not that hard either. boleh laa.

got the english test yesterday, and i got a 56. WTH. sooo low ah! i mean, i didnt use to get that low. the highest pun in the class was a 60. only 5 ppl out of 24 pass ah. apa tuu. so strict kan mataiii. so since we did soooo bad. he let us raise our marks higher by doing the ones we got wrong once again. and i got a 72 i tink. highest was a 76.

the science presentation has been postponed to May. so thats good. more time for us to prepare.

my malay orals are next saturday ah! isnt that just WACK! i mean, how the hell am i suppose to talk in full standard malay?! now thats hard. that nite, its gonna be yaya's concert. and i SOOOO WANNA GOO! but then my orals are that afternoon and then that nite i have a.math tuition till 8.30. i mean, i COULD go after my tuition or like leave early kan. but then i dunno if my mum suruh ah =/ but i sooo wanna watch yaya perform!

tadi, ate the pasta in weststreet. and it was gggooooddd. makan 2 plates lagi tu; mine and half of yayas. hahaha =) did some kareoke then did stuff on my karangan about 'pengangguran'. at first i was like, waaattt theee hell does that mean?! and they sed it was unemployment. so i was like ohh okayy. but then how the hell am i suppose to write about that IN MALAY? so the chicas helped me out there. terima kasih kamuu =D and jah, thanks for sending me home. and ya, thanks for lunch.

shit, american idol will be on soon. and like i hope bucky goes out. i mean he did okay plg last nite, but still. he shud of been out like last week. lisa is wayy better than him. ace's performance last nite, was sooo to the lawanestt! theres just sumting about the way he sings that melts me. well only some of the songs. not all. but yeah. but then, im still voting for McFever to win =D lawa kali ah her voice atu! so who's voted out tonite?

shaz.

(7:38 PM)

stupidity.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

stupid tchers! they fricking tricked us! burnedette came to each class and sed that there was gonna be a spotcheck today. and she was like for those who brought their mobile phones to school today im giving you a last chance you hand it up to me because if during the spotcheck we find that you have it with you, we will confiscate it. right now they are spotchecking the form3s upstairs and bla bla bla. so yes, WE ALL PANICED! at first we didnt wanna give it in you know, some simpan di lockers, gave to some other tchers, hid it in their clothes etc etc, but then at the end we were like EH PALOI BAGI SAJA EHHH~ so we did. we had to wrap our phones with paper that says why we were bringing it to school. then masa like 10 mins before dismissal, the ppl who brought their phones had to go to this classroom where burnedette told us that this was our last warning and if we were caught bringing it to school again, she will DEFINATELY confiscate it. but then you know wat rupanyaaaaaa, IT WAS ALL BULLLSSSHHHIIITTT! they never did spotchecked the form3s and they DIDNT spotcheck us tadi either! pukiiiima banar.

after school masa on the way home rite, i was listening to the radio. it was on the 'wat did u learn in school today' thingie i tink. anyways kann..so as i was half listening it and half asleep suddenly ada this caller..and when the dj tanya who he was, he sed his name was SANTINO CORLEONE! i was like HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA PALOOOIII KALII ANAK ANII~ paloi ko fiqq. caaalii callliii~ the dj kept saying that his name was santini, and like they were laughing about always getting the name wrong. pokoknyaa it was to the HILARIOUSSOO!

tuition break, effy introduced me to 'girlfriend'. he's one funneeeyy dude. hes such a gurl sometimes but in a manly way you know? we talked talked and talked. laughed most of the time. that dude knows how to crack us up! banar tah.

the corleone family tree

do u see me?

shaz.

(9:47 PM)

the shits.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

burrrpp. these cheesy keporok are making me feeel sick =/ anyhoo. the science thing is either this friday or sunday. we havent even prepared anything yet. im doing the conclusion part. and i have NO CLUE what to write on! biartia eh. ill figure out something.

yayer's concert for the Kod 486 was on sunday MORNING. and yaa, you did GURREEAATT! =D afiq aka sonny was soo adorable! he was like soo into the 'Cant Forget You' song. i had it on tape and he was like listening to it the entire time. kiiuuuttt! he was mumbling the words. so me being oh-so-nice, wrote down the lyrics to the chorus on this phone. and yes, i afal yaya's song. #2 fan kali ah! =D

and still sometimes i try to forget you but my heart just wont abide,

this empty space in my head is consumed with regrets,

all thoughts of you just fill my mind,

what could have been did not come to pass,

do you think we'll ever have a chance,

and so i pray,

that one day,

you'll take my hand and dance.

sunday was a first. after the show, hung out with nabilah, effy, mohsen, hakim, zhar and afiq. i rarely hang out with the 'godfather' ppl, so yeah. (oh and btw, im in the 'godfather' crew too =D HAHAHA siasiii~ my name; Jasmin Shazito Corleone. hahaha lawa kannn~!) hung out at nabilah's place then left the house to eat lunch. we all were like seliuring to eat murtabak and nabilah suggested that the ones in oslam,gdg were good. so we went there. sudah sana, iski sudah tu ah..then guess wat! NADAA AHH! they were like we only make those after 3. and we're like paaaallooiii. that time it was like 2ish. we aint gonna wait one frickin hour for a murtabak! so then check out CA muhammad if they had some, and sadly they also start making em at 3. since when was there a time kann! so ate at oslam saja lah. and shitt we had to cross the road and it was RAINING. shit sajukk.

so i ordered kie tiew (correct ka tu?). as i was eating it, guess wat i found! A FRICKING HAIR! i was ohhh myy loorrd. so effy was like COMPLAIN LA. so we did. the dudes were laughing cause we were like making so much noise sudah and then kami complain lagi. it was soo funny! kan maataaii.

later that day, chilled at west. it was just me, nabils and effy. not long, saw jeff and he chilled with us. then off to the kareoke booth we goo =D just one song though. Dancing Queen-Abba. HAHAHA emosi lagi kami menyanyi tuu. heee =) saw umi and nadj otw to the arcade.

in the car, us chicas were like TOTALLY VAIN! we kept on taking pictures of ourselves. insane i tell ya. sasak the dudes. you know, us gurls =D got home at 5. i was scared that my mum wud go all mental on me cus she sed go home straight after the concert ends but knowing me, that didnt happen. HARHAR. so before i stepped out of the car, we ALL bedoa! HAHAHAHAA panaatt. but no, she didnt get THAT mental. berdoa-ing does work~

yesterday for my one hour break between tuition classes. hung out with ermy and then we were like waiting for this dude that wanted to meet up with her. rupanya he was one of the camp student commitee. at first i didnt remember who the hell he was. he was the one who remembered me. but then later on his fren came, and i was like OHH YEAAAHH you guys are from camp. so yeah. chilled with them then me and ermy were suppose to walk to tuition. but then since the dude has a car, he offered to drop us. MERCEDES lagi tuu. hahahaha!

tadi, the science geeks went to cz kiulap and wanted to work on our science thing..but uhh i dont think that happened. we did work on it a lil bit but then we got hungry so we order. started to becerita, one thing led to another...you know how it goes. got home at 4.30. i was the only one home. so yayers, sarah and tiqah chilled kajap at my place cus yaya wanted some chocolates. yes ya, you will get fat if you stayed at my place, kann mahhh! HAHAHAHA.

in school tadi, it was FUN. i was like laughing sja mcm org gila ani wahh! its CURAAZZYY. we started to do the superstar thingie with the others. and then there was this flicking each others boobs =/ hahaha weird as it sounds. then in physics, me yaya and effy became nerds. tucked in our shirts. our pants being aaalllll the way up. acting all dorky. gila gila~

i could go on like forever, but me fingers are getting tired. toodles!

shaz.

(6:15 PM)

shaz when yu bloggin?!

playing: get it together - india arie.

me iPod's back! HAHA. cos about four days back, i lent it to yanneh to help upload sm songs onto it. so, thanks yann! love yuuh.

three years back.

i just woke up from a looooooong afternoon nap. it was school tdeh. it was quite funneh. during english, we were told to write a conversation between two people consisting of words given by the textbook. so, twas me and yanneh again. HAHAHA. only this time we took it to the extreme -- meaning not taking our work seriously. because we thought, since we were the one who read up front the last time. we didnt expect us to be chosen again. but nooo~ hahaha. unfortunately we were the FIRST people chosen to read. it was dreadful, so me and yan tried changing the script, but it was far too difficult. this was our first try:

*bolded words are the words from the textbook.
"HEY. shall we slaughter a cow?"
"i dont know, can we afford that?"
"yeah, what makes you think we're someone from the lower status?"
"sure, but i'll make sure this will never persist from now on."

we went quite for a while, trying to figure out how to change our next sentence. mr. michael came over to see what the problem was. as he was reading he thought the script was crazy but still he read it out loud:

the original.
"HEY. can i slaughter you?"
"fo' sho' you can afford that?!"
"daamn right. think im a person from the lower status?!"
"YAHH. i wont let this persist starting from now!"
"what do you mean, you were the one who influenced me."
"fine. but once i ressurect im gnuh give you guidelines to suicide 101, cos you aint living life when im not."
"whatever man, ive already killed a minority of animals."

recently.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. HOW paca is that. man we were laughing our arses off the whole day. but is cool, its been a while. aneweh. the last time we did somethin like this was about 3 weeks ago. here:

"i was just arriving to class when i saw one of my class mates pointing a gun to our teacher"

HAHA.

"i could see she wasnt the only one who was scared, the whole class was even more frightened. i took a step backward to hide myself from all the drama. i could not believe what i was witnessing. the guy with the gun in his hand was getting more insane. i overheard him say how the teacher had always treated him unfairly. when i took a peek to see how it was, i was mortified as it was my bestfriend. i was devastated of how my bestfriend would do such nonsense and tears started rolling down my cheeks."

"suddenly i heard a second voice which sounded so fimiliar it made me more drawn to the scene. the second voice started cussing of how ridiculous my bestfriend was being. it was such a vague sight so i couldnt really tell who it was. then i heard a gunshot followed by screamings that wailed up the scale to a treble pitch and remained there. i immediately ran into the classroom and i had a strong feeling that i was too late as i saw my bestfriend with a gun in his mouth, in preparation of pulling the trigger. the gunshot sounded so fierceful that it felt as if it had pierced itself into my eyes. i screamed but it made no difference. my heart felt as if it was repeatedly stabbed by a newly sharpened knife."

"for a moment, i couldnt think. i sat next to my bestfriend's body and looked at the crowd of people surrounding another body. each and everyone of my classmates visually sent me symphaties as the other boy who died was...

my boyfriend."

HAHAHAHA. in your face you lying mofoh! haha. neweh, i pinned umi down today. HAHA. cos she freakin blew out a peanut straight from her mouth to my face. haha. kesian anak atu. btw OMG. shes such a twin man. haha. theres no denying it this time.

"HEY. dont blame me. blame my twin."

e; i'll be your ciggarette.

(4:35 PM)

huhuh?

Sunday, April 02, 2006

earrthlings. oh god had such a crazy night. to the extreme. rebel eh. HAHA. right.

so i stayed over at karen's place. i skated. haha. suuure. but it sucked cos i didnt quite concentrate as everything around me was whoozy and so friggin funneh. haha. bah. what else happened. nothing mch. found a fly's poo poo arah our lunch tadi. HAHAHAHA.. how gross man.

neweh i really wana go out. im preduh bored. i wana jalan gadong or smthin. or smwher else fun fr once. man why cant they put up a paintball place here man. haha id be wasting my moneh 247 on it. man, just imagine. haha! its be so goddamn fun. "huhu" HAHAHAHAHA. huhu is everywhere now. isnt that funny.

neweh as i was saying. they should also consider opening up a wave surfing place thing. HAHAHAHA. and better arcades man, haha. paca ku. my bad. im just seriously bored right nw. nyehs. il update later. hehe. hugs.

e; phone over internet.

(3:41 PM)