stupid title shit.
it seems that everytime i blog, i tend to complain. thats all ive been doing really. i apologise, if it has come to irk the ish out of you. do take notice that i am under a lot of stress right now. would really appreciate it if you just played along. thank you (:
inhale.
i finally found the guitar chord book, was hoping to start improving my guitar skills turns out i dont know how to and it sucks. guitar isnt as easy as i thought i would be. so i spent half an hour trying to download chords from various song choices. felt pretty confident at first, was actually because i didnt have Jack with me at the time. i was just imagining how it would sound like. well in my head it sounded ace perfect, but once i got to turning all that into reality. i stanked. except for Pearl Jam's Last Kiss and Avril's Nobody's Home. haha. thats the best i can do. oh well. i'll figure something out.
i stayed up real late last night. which wasnt really helping me since i was caught up in such a bad mood but sapi helped me regained that.. so thanks (: it was exactly what i needed at the time -- the sound of the guitar. ah, my happy place (: my voice is getting so rusty man. i like it :p but it hurts hell.
aww, i just received a msg from bestfriend ku wana. i love you too phat jane (: i miss you like crajjeh.
dude ive gone so fat. its so crazy, im so upset. HAHA. what made it worse was that. mama actually asked me while i was studying. "mah, are you fat?" i was like. wdh, what kind of question is that. i mean it was far worse than just simply saying im fat. she ASKED me if i thought i was fat. my god mama ): but yeah i think i am. HAHA. my god, so much for being such a g-irl.
"i dont want to be a stupid girl."
pause; 10.13PM.
play; 10.44PM.
have you ever felt so bad in your life that you get sick to your stomach for doing so? but then again it was not like you had any other options. but doesnt it just kill knowing that someone is going to get through what you have gone through? like being dumped in a relationship for example. esp when your so commited to it, and one day. you get dumped. and your hating that person, so much you swore to yourself to never trust again. until one day, karma hits you. and you do the same to someone new, and you start to understand why these things happen. is that how people start to realise? getting hit by karma? funny how life can be so vague at one point, and at the other its crystal clear. nothing amusing about it though. i dont think anyone would want to be a heartbreaker, as least not i. anyway best be off, got literature first thing in the morning. at least theres something to look foward to. 
the majikins i love.
four can play the game.
mirror madness.
majins.
e; what goes around, comes around. think about it.
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